Three years...almost to the day...and I have cancer again. I started this blog three years ago, but I was so very confident that I would beat it that I never wrote more than one entry. Now I wishing I had more of a record of what I went through so I could compare it to now. I now have Stage 4 Recurrent Ovarian Cancer. Doctors say that worst case scenario I have a few months, and best I have about 18. There is about a 1% survival rate past the 5 year mark. That being said I am still hopeful that this is just a setback and I will get past this and if it is my time I will be sorry to go but at the same time excited to see what awaits on the other side.
A little background on how I ended up here...again. Actually it was complications from the previous surgery. When I went in to the doctor to have my staples removed from my surgery 3 years ago my abdomen separated and it created a hernia which has been irritating over the years but nothing I felt needed to be corrected immediately. This past allergy season had me sneezing a lot which I knew was causing some issues with my hernia but I kept putting off going to the doctor because the first one was so traumatic and I didn't want my abdomen opened again. I started having some issues with my digestion and I did what I could for it but it kept getting worse and I starting experiencing some considerable pain. Finally one morning I woke in so much pain I had my roommate take me to the emergency room. They did a scan and found that my bowel had impacted into my hernia and sent me to a surgeon, Dr. Sutherland. (I give his name simply because he did a beautiful job on the surgery and has proven to be a great doctor who I would highly recommend to anyone and everyone!) He went in to correct the hernia and found some spots on my diaphragm and elsewhere and took biopsies which turned out to be cancerous. I am sure I could have had the surgery sooner but they might have missed those spots and I might not have known until it was too late to treat the cancer. I believe everything happens when it does for a reason. I always been fairly in tune with my body and I while I knew I needed to get my hernia checked but I chose to wait. Maybe that was my stubborn fears or maybe that was my way of letting my body get to a point where it could be clear that there was more there to deal with that the hernia. I trust that Heavenly Father has a plan and I can but hope that I am in tune with what he has planned for me and this was how it was to work out even if it is not ideal, going into chemo still recovering from surgery and additional procedures (more about those later), but it is better than not knowing and just letting the cancer win.
I am not too excited about losing my hair again. I was pretty brave about it the first time, but it was traumatic. I know it will be happening again soon. I know the signs now and I can feel it coming. I sure I will have a whole entry later to devote to that. So that is where I am at now. I get chemo every Monday and so I am going to try to blog each week around that time. I find that I don't feel as well later in the week so I have to take advantage of the good times while I can.
For now I will continue to enjoy the adventure that is Life!
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