Why you gotta make things so complicated!?

The last couple of days I have been having some pains in my leg.  I had been experiencing so cramping in my leg over the last couple of months so at first I thought that is what it was, but within a day or two I knew something was off, then Sunday night I woke and my knee was stiff and my calf felt like someone had overinflated a blood pressure cuff on it, so when I went in for my treatment on Monday I asked about it and then sent me to the nurse practitioner who sent me to the ultrasound guy who sent the results to the radiologist who sent the report to the nurse practitioner who wrote me a prescription because apparently I have a "rather large" blood clot in my leg.  I have to say that already today I am feeling considerably better and I am glad to say that I have completed cycle one!  Woohoo! 5 more to go! 6 weeks since my initial surgery and I am doing pretty well even if I do have a stupid blood clot.

Really though the blood clot has us all a little upset.  I had a cousin who broke her leg and died quite suddenly from a blood clot related to her injury and so the mention of one has everyone a little anxious.  She, my cousin Susan, was a young newlywed with her whole life ahead of her and so when she died so suddenly it was a shock to us all.  Now I am the hyperfocus of everyone's attention around here.  I think it will be okay, but it did set us all on edge.  I figure if it is time to go then it is time to go but I don't think that this will be how it happens.  It is just another challenge to get through so we can enjoy the blessings that come from overcoming challenges.  My mom sent me an article a few weeks ago and I have been avoiding my emails since all this started but I was going through and clearing out my inbox and decided to finally read it.  I truly believe that sometimes what may seem to be procrastination on my part can sometimes be my inner voice telling me to wait just a little longer.  Like with my hernia surgery I could have done it months, even years ago, but I waited until there was something else to find which might have otherwise been missed.  I could have read this article weeks ago, but reading it today was the right time as we have been dealing with this new and unexpected complication.

The article quotes from that beloved author, C.S. Lewis and I share that quote here and will provide the link for the article afterwards.

Imagine yourself as a living house. God comes in to rebuild that house. At first, perhaps, you can understand what He is doing. He is getting the drains right and stopping the leaks in the roof and so on; you knew that those jobs needed doing and so you are not surprised. But presently He starts knocking the house about in a way that hurts abominably and does not seem to make any sense. What on earth is He up to? The explanation is that He is building quite a different house from the one you thought of - throwing out a new wing here, putting on an extra floor there, running up towers, making courtyards. You thought you were being made into a decent little cottage: but He is building a palace. He intends to come and live in it Himself. (Mere Christianity) 

                  Read the article here: http://www.ldsmag.com/article/1/12837/1/page-1

I definitely needed to read this today. To put things into perspective once again.  I am not as sure as I was the first time that I will overcome this, and maybe that is good.  I have to trust more in my Heavenly Father's plan and in Him, and Christ's atonement.  I have to really put my life in his hands and be willing to do what he wants me to do.  I am not in control this time but that doesn't mean that things are out of control.  I can only continue to enjoy what time I am given and do my best in this adventure called Life!